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Embracing the Evolution of Desire: A Personal Reflection on Casual Sex and Intimacy




In a world where our emotional and physical needs are often compartmentalized, casual sex stands out as a testament to the complexity of human connection. It’s a space where emotions thrive, albeit not always in the ways we traditionally envision. The pursuit of casual sex can be a journey towards freedom, an exploration of autonomy, or a reclamation of power. These pursuits are valid and deserve recognition.


I’ve always been a proponent of casual sex when approached with intention, clear communication, and mutual respect. After nursing the wounds of a previous relationship, I made a bold resolution for this year: to “be a ho in twenty-fo.” This declaration wasn’t just about physical encounters; it was about embracing my desires with unapologetic authenticity.


As someone with ADHD, novelty isn’t just a want—it’s a need. Monogamy feels constraining, a limitation on the breadth of experiences that make me feel alive. I’m incredibly fortunate to be married to a partner who not only supports this pursuit of novelty but actively participates in and facilitates these adventures. Our relationship is a testament to the beauty of mutual understanding and shared exploration.


In my career as an intimacy coach, I encounter a wealth of erotic novelty through my clients. It’s a daily reminder of how fulfilling and diverse human connections can be. I often find myself saying, “My life does not suck,” with a smile that comes from deep within my soul.


However, while love might be infinite, my time and energy are not. My dating profile is a clear reflection of this reality: if you want to date me, you must bring something unique to the table. Over time, I’ve curated a polycule of partners, each fulfilling different sexual and relational dynamics. This curation isn’t about treating people as mere playthings but about honoring my needs and patterns. I fall in love quickly but can grow tired just as fast. Some might see this as avoidant attachment, but I believe it’s a facet of my neurodiversity that allows me to maintain relationships with infrequent communication.


Each relationship begins with clearly defined boundaries. I’m upfront about what I seek, what I can offer, and the importance of sex positivity and mutual autonomy. My marriage remains my priority, and I’m always vocal about the immense gratitude I have for my husband. This openness has been met with various reactions—intimidation, appreciation, recognition of incompatibility, and sometimes, the perfect match.


But as the seasons change, so do my desires. The predictability of “no-strings attached” connections is beginning to lose its charm. Now, I find myself yearning for deeper, more spiritual connections. I crave the intoxicating high of falling in love again, the giddiness of new relationship energy (NRE). I want the adventure of raw vulnerability, to watch someone become emotionally naked with me. I want romance.


With this newfound clarity, I’ve decided to step back from casual sex for a while. It might be a few weeks, or it could be several months. What’s certain is that my needs will continue to evolve, and the paradigm will shift. And that’s okay.


This journey isn’t just about seeking pleasure; it’s about honoring the fluid nature of my desires and embracing the changes that come with growth. It’s about recognizing that every connection, casual or deep, brings its own kind of fulfillment. And in this beautiful, ever-changing dance of intimacy, I find myself continually learning, evolving, and, most importantly, living authentically.

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